Five Minute Friday again. This week’s topic–last. Check out Lisa Jo’s blog for more entries.
“No, that’s OK. You guys go ahead. I’ll be last.”
If I had a nickel for everytime I have said that in my life… Yes, you are thinking correctly. I am constantly last–last in line, last to put away my dishes, last to fold the laundry, last to make a decision. Last, last, last. That is the way I live.
How did I get this way? Well, for many years, I tried desperately to be first…in anything. But, that never happened for me. Not until…my husband proposed to me. I was the first and only one he ever asked to marry him! Hey, life was looking up!
But, then we had children, and I once again became the queen of last-ness. Now I know that we have to put our children’s needs ahead of our own, and I did (and if I were completely honest, I still do even though they are both in their twenties now!). All those years of putting myself last took it’s toll. How do I carve out some time for me?
Then I remember a verse in the Bible: “and the first shall be last, and the last shall be first” (loosely paraphrased by me). There’s hope. My last-ness may not be a terminal condition. I spend a lot of my time serving others–and one day, I hope that I can be in a place to appreciate the work others do for me.
That is, if I’m not the last one to get there…
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